Illusion

What is on your mind today? Is it something that you were doing earlier and couldn't stop thinking about? or is it some lust, a desire. Perhaps a girl or a boy. Or your favorite music which you listen when your memory triggers something in the past and comes back the memories of that tune that you used to listen.
Your inner world, connected to this outer world, constantly changing. Only you are in control of what you think about. Parallel worlds, one affecting another. Still unsure which is the cause and which is the action. Does the real world causes us to change our thinking or the world changes because of our thinking? Maybe both?
Self awareness is both virtue and a vice, depending on how you use it.

Unfortunately, money the only incentive we believe in these days. It is capitalism, that blinds us from our existence, and how short lived it is. What if one wants to reject it? It will be a harsh sin in this world.

Reason above all.

Better things in life are the ones which make you comfortable? or the ones which make you push your limits? or something that you desire? Instead there are many variables that come into account when it comes to personal choices consciously or otherwise. Indoctrination in a way helps in setting up the path with rock solid symbolism. Meaningful people help us along the way, to give us a sense of purpose. The truth that I feel is that there is no single way to the better things. Life itself is something which we discover, but as soon as I observe it closely, some specific things lose its importance in my judgement. The feeling is more like when you see 'The last judgement' by Michelangelo, when there is a desire to unite with the higher powers. Waning of inhibitions I should call it. By practical means it doesn't seem to be too significant. Much more similar to being in love with something or someone.
There is a fight between objectivity and inconclusive subjectivity. The fight will go on and on, there is no stopping. When variables like, 'if its good for humanity',' justice', 'social well being' etc come into account the reason turns its pathway. Reason above all, it screams.